So today I got the bridesmaid dress for my roomies wedding. It's lovely, its exactly like Giselle's dress from Enchanted, the one she made from the curtains, only its a dark hunter green.

My boobs are too big for it. The lady must have either given me the next size down or taken in the bust area, Because WOW, it does not even zip in that part of the back without extreme force. I did try extreme force and after it got past the girls, it zipped easily. Freaking boobs. I'm up to a stupid E cup now, which pisses me off. I'm going to diet back down to a double D. if it kills me, I will do it. Because E cup bras cost like $73 a piece, while double D's are like $19-$40. I'll save money just by starving myself.

Dear Oregon,


It is not nice to be 93 degrees one day and 61 the next. Pick a season, please.

Thank You,

The Girl Wearing Shorts and a Sweater

I read all three Twilight books in less than 24 hours. Twilight was SO FREAKIN AWESOME that I ran to the bookstore yesterday morning and bought New Moon and Eclipse.

They are just so....awesome! I haven't fallen in love with a fictional character since Buffy, however I am in total romantical love with Edward Cullen. And possibly Jacob Black. I had to put the book down randomly to do happy dances and to squee over things. The characters just jump right off the pages and all the romance was just so perfect and not overdone or cheesy at all.

Why can my life not be like that?! I want a vampire!

Hurray for birthday book shopping! I am convinced that everyone should just give me books from now on because i am such a reading whore.

Today's Stash includes;

The Harlequin by Laurell K Hamilton (Waiting for paperback FOREVER!)

13 Little Blue Envelopes by Maureen Johnson (A truly great author I met in New York once)

The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen (My favorite YouTube people read her stuff)

Twilight by Stephenie Meyer (I finally broke down and bought the stupid book. Vampire novels own my life)

I also found an adorable blue journal with pictures of cats reading and sleeping amongst books. How very moi!

No trip to the mall is complete without a stop to the pet store, of course. I talked this guy into adopting a Lab at the pound instead of buying one and I bought my little darlings some catnip mice.

21 sucked and 22 isn't looking much better. Everyone canceled any and all birthday plans with me. No cards from family. No presents because everyone is poor. I'm having to fight off the urges to go blow some cash because i'm feeling sad and sorry for myself.

It's not working too well. Hello buying albums on Itunes.

I stupidly forgot to cancel my Amazon Prime membership until the day it was renewing and they already starting authorizing the charge from my checking account. Grr! I canceled right away and asked them to refund the money, hopefully they will. That money was my buffer money, i.e. the money I make myself keep in my checking account until next paycheck in case I forget about a bill or charge, and then transfer to savings when the next direct deposit hits. Now I'll be dipping near zero and will have to be sure I account for all charges. I hope they refund it.

I hate how one day i am SO financially ok and have plenty of extra funds and then the next, I am edgy and may not have enough. I budgeted so well this check. Paid all the bills through the beginning of May, bought extra groceries, and even had enough money to treat myself to an early birthday present of an Apple Ipod Shuffle, and STILL had a buffer in the checking. I think I am going to use my stimulus money to take out a prepaid credit card or something for purposes like this. Every time I use my debit card, i get screwed or messed up and the budgeting is defeated. I had it hooked up to netflix and they triple charged me. I used it on Ebay and I had paypal fraud and it took weeks to fix.

I am super excited for tomorrows Lost! And Bones was good this week too.

I can't believe Hillary took PA. I thought it was an Obama-fied state. Oregon is very Obama-fied.

I've had the Legally Blonde soundtrack on lately and I can't help notice how country Laura Bell Bundy sounds. Especially in the song Serious, she comes off a bit honky tonk. Not that its bad, because shes awesome and can do no wrong, but its amusing to hear that sound in the voice of a character who is supposed to be California born.

Ever been so sick you wanted to die? I am currently having that feeling. We have no food in the house and won't have time to grocery shop until late tonight or tomorrow, so I decided I would stop by the 7-11 and get a Big Bite hot dog to tie me over. i was going to order a pizza but I am sick of spending like $20 on something that the roomies eat 90% of, so a $1.99 hot dog seemed like a perfect plan.

I only finished half of it before my stomach was rumbling, so I grabbed the roommates bottle of Maalox and threw the rest away and opted for some plain Cheerios instead. No dice, I am currently nauseous and my stomach is literally burning and turning and making me think i'm going to vomit every five minutes.

I have an extremely strong stomach. I once downed an entire pizza, only to follow it up with a pint of ben and jerry's so I know I can eat fatty/heavy foods with no issue. Obviously that is not a regular thing but I have my share of crappy diet days and rarely get an upset tummy.

This really makes me wonder what they put in those things.

EDIT: omg, i'm embarrassed. Roomie wanted to get groceries and after throwing up, i felt ok enough, and then as soon as we hit the bump on driveway I needed to puke again so I tossed her my credit card and jumped out of the car and threw up in the bushes. She's getting groceries and I spent 10 minutes on the bathroom floor and only felt ok after chugging some Pepto Bismal and taking a Tums.

I hate being sick.

Ugh. I am updating the cat food and litter pronto. I just changed the kitty box on April 7 and it was disgusting tonight. I went in my room and nearly gagged when I opened the closet. I think that maybe one of them missed and peed on the carpet or something because it stank so badly, which is rare since I scoop twice a week and clean fairly regularly. Even when I let the box go for three weeks in Maryland due to lack of funding for litter, it didn't stink this badly. What the hell, cats? Trying to drive me from my room and take over the bed. Or more likely trying to give me a reason to clean the ten tons of laundry on the floor. Because now I will vacuum like crazy to make sure every piece of cat litter is gone.

Do you know how hard it is to keep a clean room with two rambunctious cats? Seriously? Seriously! I fold the towels, the are a new bed. I stack the books, they are a new launchpad. I vacuum everything and it is a personal goal to be able to fling cat litter clear across the room and behind the bookshelves. Making the bed means they want to burrow under the covers. Changing the sheets means they will fight on the new ones, shedding tufts of hair like crazy. A newly shined floor is the best place to vomit and a newly vacuumed one the best place to rip a hole in the catnip toy and shake it like a dog. I've lived in a cleaner, tidier place with four 100lb Rottweilers!

Ah, but then they do cute things and purr and cuddle and will whine if I am not in bed at a certain time. And all the stupid/cute things they do. Mr Moon is currently licking a wall. Drusilla is trying to gnaw off her tail. Cats! Who could live without them?

First time out driving today and I drove the car into a ditch and took out three mailboxes. Not my fault entirely, roomie put me on a narrow country road  with deep ditches next to the road and mailboxes on the side. I was doing great just cruising along until a MAC truck came towards us and she freaked for me to pull over fast. So I pulled over. FAST. But I was pulling over right and I couldn't tell how close the ditch was so in we went and took out some mailboxes in the process. I scratched the car pretty good too.

So now they are arguing about how I should have been taught in parking lot, not a country road.

I finally passed my driving permit test! Clearly someone was working against me though! I take the test, got a freaking 100%, and go out to collect my permit. The guy is all confused at the screen and keeps asking me if i paid and if i was sure I passed. Turns out someone put in a failing score for me already for the day. What the fuck?! Luckily they overrode it, took my pic, and gave me my permit. YAY! They said I can come back at anytime and just schedule the drivers test to get the full license so I'm gonna do some training with Kris and get on that ASAP.

After that I hit the mall and bought shoes. Found a pair of sneakers and a pair of casual mary janes for only $50!

And I found my makeup on sale at Sephora. I get the mineral foundation stuff and its pretty spendy, but they were having a sale. Awesome day~

So when i put up a friends only entry it just messed up all of my entries..so i guess this is only semi-friends only. Stupid lj! 

You know you watch too much tv when you watch the news about a religious compound shipping out all the girls because of possible sexual assault and immediately think "ohmigod, it's so Big Love!"

Today I went to work, downloaded three rips of broadway shows, and the soundtrack to the Xena Musical. I also win at nerdiness.


No word on moving yet. I feel like I am the only person who can ever get their act together, apartment hunt, apply, and just move! Everyone else has to fuck around for weeks and months and spend days making a decision over one bath or two. Le Sigh.

Edit. My entries apparently weren't showing up before. Wth?

I fixed the checking account situation. It didn't turn out completely bad, i recouped most of my losses I was just on a non-existent budget for a few days.

Moving plans are entirely up in the air. Kris and Josh found lovely apartments downtown. But its like $1500 to move in and i have $1000 BUT I should not be forking more than my third of the moving in cost. Plus she got a part time job that is 24 hours a week. I did the math and that puts her gross income at like $800 a month. More like $600 after Oregon taxes. Rent on that place would be $935, so $310ish a piece. Since Josh is jobless, she'd be paying both halves which is more than her income.

Our apartment is offering to let us renew the least at current pricing. Our water bill will go up $10, It would be perfect to renew, except they don't want to live out here, it's cramped with three people, and she's having trouble paying the bills as it is and I am sick of stressing out over the utility shutoff notices always hanging on our door. I mean, she always manages to come up with the money at the last second and keep it on, but I AM the one stressing about the notices because I get the mail and am home to suffer the electricity being off whereas they can run to their parents if there have no heat or light.  What it breaks down to is I do not want to resign a lease with them at all until they are fully employed.

Alicia wants to get a place together which I am really wanting. I have this huge guilt about leaving the roomies though. $600 a month after taxes won't pay the rent here even and even if she keeps more than that due to tax brackets, its still $675 for rent here without a single utility bill or any car or food expenses. Living the bare minimum would be an issue. I'd feel horrible doing that to someone, especially knowing that my income makes or breaks their living standards and poverty levels. But then on the other hand, i want to be selfish because I think that being unemployed for so long because your a snob about having just the right job and letting your roomie sweat out the utility and food bills is selfish too.

Advice, friends? I know most of you will say "Move! Now!" but I really just kind of need to hear it to reaffirm that I am not being a selfish, abandoning, bitch

The roomie went out for the weekend to visit parents. i'm stuck home alone with Drusilla who is shedding, Lord Canine who is puking because his Mommy isn't home, and Mr Moon who is flea bitten and the flea meds aren't working!

On the plus side, i did have a really awesome and long bubble bath this morning. I love not sharing a bathroom.

Today sucked worse than ever. I'm eating ben and jerry's and downing anxiety pills so i don't 'splode from sheer frustratedness.

Basically I had $150 in checking with an outstanding check to Chase for $100 to pay off my credit card. YAY for paying off cards! I also knew I had a few small outstanding purchases from our cafe at work where I get an iced tea in the morning, totalling maybe $15 at absolute most according to my receipts. I get paid Friday and was fine.

Until I had three random charges from Netflix came through for $20 each. I canceled it in Jan and sent back the movies and just now they are claiming they never got them. I call them and they promise they goofed and I'll get that credited in 7 to 10 days. Okay, not perfect but i have $40 in savings I transfer over to cover the check and cafe stuff until payday. Not a crisis yet.

THEN CHASE DECIDED TO RUN MY CHECK FOR 1000 INSTEAD OF 100!!!!! OVERDRAFT OF DOOM!

So because Wells Fargo likes to reorder charges, they ran the $1000 first and then ran the three netflix charges (which had been pending), then all the cafe stuff (7 more transactions) and I am like $1300 negative in my account right now. 

Chase is sorry, of course, and will fix it in, again, 7 to 10 days. Wells won't remove the overdrafts unless I file a claim which will most likely be denied if Chase puts the charge back themselves. And when my direct deposit goes in on Friday, its gets eaten by that and I will have no money for food. Luckily my bills aren't due until next week so i won't fuck up further with late fees and more fees.

And our lease is up in April not May and the roommates still have no jobs. So if we move its either up to me to make the deposits and carry their asses til they work again or i move in by myself and will struggle to pay the rent because it will take it from 30% of my income to almost 65%.

I want to cry and get a sugar daddy

I've been kinda feeling down lately. I look around at all the things I do and I feel like I do everything only mediocre. I'm nothing special at anything and its super frustrating. I love jewelry making and I suck at it. I love scrapbooking and card making and my stuff looks like a 4th graders. I love animals but anytime I open my mouth everyone jumps on how much more knowledgeble they are about them. I love to cook but often, my stuff goes uneaten and I've no one to really cook for.

However, in a vain attempt to change that I made dinner for the roomies tonight. Crunchy Chili Cheese Chicken, Garlic Parmesan Smashed Potatoes, and Double Chocolate Brownies.  Its looking fantastic.

Kris, Josh, and I are driving today when suddenly there is a weird blue flash and very loud WHOOSH from behind one of the hills we were driving past. Of course, we all exclaim our first guess at what it is..


Kris: Bomb!

Josh: Aliens!

Me: Stargate!


They both paused and looked back at me like I  was crazy. I am too big of a nerd apparently. But really. blue light, big whoosh. If only John, Rodney, Ronon, and Lorne came though. :)

Otherwise things are good. I had a slight and happy epiphany this morning because I was going back and reading and flocking some LJ entries and I realized that I've done some awesome things and I've managed to keep myself above water financially a lot of the time, when a lot of other people would not have been. I moved across the country with no savings on a crappy retail job and I've gone from having nothing to being able to comfortably buy myself a new computer, mp3 player, clothes, and other stuff. Plus saving up a lot of money. :)

I had the best customer today, you guys! Ok, he called in wanting to know his credit card number so he could hand it to the person at the restaurant he was at and she could charge it.

This brings up the normal question of "So..where is your credit card, sir?"

He repiles "Well...I live in California and I'm currently in Chicago. I left my entire wallet and all my luggage in California. I don't even have any id, just my cell phone and car keys"

I was dumbfounded and asked him how he got to Chicago in less than a few hours with no money or I.D.

"Uuuumm...I flew on a plane. How else does one get around the country? Can I have my credit card number?"

So I ask security questions and give him his number and then I can't resist myself "How did you get on the plane with no I.D?"

"I told the American Airlines people I needed to get on the flight and they made an exception and put me on the flight"

"WITH NO I.D. OR CREDIT CARDS TO PROVE WHO YOU ARE?"

"Nope, they were real nice about it. looked up my tickets by my name and even gave me a free drink on the plane. I need this charge to go through for the food though"

".........uuuuuhhhh..ok..well glad you made it to Chicago..if you put the merchant on, i'll give them an authorization number for your charge. ..have a great trip"


I totally would have called bullshit on this guy except I checked his account. One ticket from Los Angeles to Chicago bought last night, and later in the day a manual authorization for a hotel. I am never flying American if you can just get on with no id or anything to show who you are. i really wanted to ask how he got through security however I thought I'd been pester-y enough.

what the fuck!

Roomie and fiance took me out to see scenic stuff today. I have tons and tons of really awesome oregon pictures. :) 

New camera! So, here are some pics. Mostly Oregon pretty stuff (aka the reason I moved here!) but a few kitty pics too!